[When he pulls away, her hands hover awkwardly in the air a moment as she bites her lower lip. As much as she'd like to think so, she wasn't holding him just for his sake, but for her own as well. But if he didn't want her touching him, well, that was that, then, and her hands fall uselessly to her lap.
She flinches when he yells, studiously looking away from him so he wouldn't see her cry. The tears are still running unchecked down her face, but if she's not facing him, he obviously can't see them. Yes. Just like she can't see that he's crying. Look at her go.]
Young master, I...
[She takes several breaths, trying to get her voice as close to under-control as she can manage. It's an effort before she can speak again, her hands curling into fists in her lap.
He's not wrong. This is twice now she's died for him, and left him alone. She already knows what happened without her there at the castle, but who knows what his future holds on the island? She doesn't. And after seeing what he had to go through here, that scares her.
So she can't honestly say she doesn't regret it. Not anymore.]
I...
[Her face scrunches up, and she doesn't look at him. Can't look at him, her eyes focused on her clenched fists in her lap. It hurts, that he doesn't want her to protect him. Like she's just not good enough at the thing she was supposed to spend her entire life doing. But his reasoning makes it... better. Ish. Better-ish.]
I'm sorry... [she finally chokes out, the words almost sticking in her throat. But she doesn't leave it at that, forcing herself to continue,] I'm... I'm sorry I could not be there for you. And I won't be there for you. I'm sorry. If I could change it, I would. To stay at your side. Please forgive me.
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She flinches when he yells, studiously looking away from him so he wouldn't see her cry. The tears are still running unchecked down her face, but if she's not facing him, he obviously can't see them. Yes. Just like she can't see that he's crying. Look at her go.]
Young master, I...
[She takes several breaths, trying to get her voice as close to under-control as she can manage. It's an effort before she can speak again, her hands curling into fists in her lap.
He's not wrong. This is twice now she's died for him, and left him alone. She already knows what happened without her there at the castle, but who knows what his future holds on the island? She doesn't. And after seeing what he had to go through here, that scares her.
So she can't honestly say she doesn't regret it. Not anymore.]
I...
[Her face scrunches up, and she doesn't look at him. Can't look at him, her eyes focused on her clenched fists in her lap. It hurts, that he doesn't want her to protect him. Like she's just not good enough at the thing she was supposed to spend her entire life doing. But his reasoning makes it... better. Ish. Better-ish.]
I'm sorry... [she finally chokes out, the words almost sticking in her throat. But she doesn't leave it at that, forcing herself to continue,] I'm... I'm sorry I could not be there for you. And I won't be there for you. I'm sorry. If I could change it, I would. To stay at your side. Please forgive me.