[ it's like a reminder to himself right now to be careful. His mouth hangs open for a second like he wants to explain but he answers her instead, ]

You.

When you said you loved me too. [ after he decided there to return her feelings, there wasn't a turning back ] You're so beautiful when you smile and when you're mad and when you play music and when I thought I'd never see you again I didn't want to leave you either. I could have-- should have said something then but...

I was so happy. You made me so happy. So happy I... [his voice cracks ] I hated myself.

I wanted to change for you.